Another well written and thought through piece that resonate ♥️
“I just looped, surging with energy, flooded with ideas, but never able to channel any of it.”
This thing with having lots of ideas but not being able to make them come alive has made me feel useless throughout my life. Lately though I’ve been looking at it differently. In Big magic, Gilbert talks about ideas like living beings floating around looking/waiting for the right person to realise them. I think she’s on to something but then I thought, surely they have to come from somewhere, where are ideas “born”. Well, maybe they are born in peoples’ head and maybe sometimes you’re just meant to give birth to them and let them float away to find their person. So now I don’t feel bad, just by hatching an idea I’ve done something good and productive.
This resonates deeply with me. Because our skills are very valuable, in professional settings as well. Lots of us thrive in emergency situations because, as you beautifully put it, we are able sense tiny shifts and our brains, always going at 1000Km/h quickly put together a picture, decide and act.
I just had this conversation with a couple of people. High masking AuADHD is exhausting. My therapist said 'we all mask' and, yes, we do-however, I explained to her how much energy it takes an ND to mask- filter, stay on track and present, to organize... all of the things that a neurotypical can do without thought. For an ND, it all takes energy and its exhausting.
I have said, recently and over and over at various times in my life that 'I am an idea person' and 'good in a crises'. I don't have the organizational capacity to bring these ideas to fruition because of the challenge with organization. Their answer is always 'try harder'... well doi... if it was about trying harder I would have several PHD's. LMAO....
I like what Monika B says... about letting the idea float away to 'find their person' because I have struggled with imposter syndrome and not feeling appreciated when a colleague runs with an idea that I posited days, months, even years ago, but then am not given 'credit' for. It feels dismissive... I have been working on not wanting to 'have credit' (ie 'be seen') for ideas. Accepting that I am an idea generator but not a organized follow through-er is helpful.
Another well written and thought through piece that resonate ♥️
“I just looped, surging with energy, flooded with ideas, but never able to channel any of it.”
This thing with having lots of ideas but not being able to make them come alive has made me feel useless throughout my life. Lately though I’ve been looking at it differently. In Big magic, Gilbert talks about ideas like living beings floating around looking/waiting for the right person to realise them. I think she’s on to something but then I thought, surely they have to come from somewhere, where are ideas “born”. Well, maybe they are born in peoples’ head and maybe sometimes you’re just meant to give birth to them and let them float away to find their person. So now I don’t feel bad, just by hatching an idea I’ve done something good and productive.
This resonates deeply with me. Because our skills are very valuable, in professional settings as well. Lots of us thrive in emergency situations because, as you beautifully put it, we are able sense tiny shifts and our brains, always going at 1000Km/h quickly put together a picture, decide and act.
If we find the right environment, we shine.
I just had this conversation with a couple of people. High masking AuADHD is exhausting. My therapist said 'we all mask' and, yes, we do-however, I explained to her how much energy it takes an ND to mask- filter, stay on track and present, to organize... all of the things that a neurotypical can do without thought. For an ND, it all takes energy and its exhausting.
I have said, recently and over and over at various times in my life that 'I am an idea person' and 'good in a crises'. I don't have the organizational capacity to bring these ideas to fruition because of the challenge with organization. Their answer is always 'try harder'... well doi... if it was about trying harder I would have several PHD's. LMAO....
I like what Monika B says... about letting the idea float away to 'find their person' because I have struggled with imposter syndrome and not feeling appreciated when a colleague runs with an idea that I posited days, months, even years ago, but then am not given 'credit' for. It feels dismissive... I have been working on not wanting to 'have credit' (ie 'be seen') for ideas. Accepting that I am an idea generator but not a organized follow through-er is helpful.